First of all, I think I owe you all an apology…I haven’t updated this blog in more than 20 days, which is far more time than I’d like for it to be “non updated”. But being totally honest here, I simply couldn’t do it earlier. This is bigger than me. This song is bigger than me. This is why I was kind of postponing this post (it went too far, I know, I’m sorry!). But remember the song I was talking about that kept me up one night? Well…this it it.
(sorry, I know it’s almost unfair to share this demo with you guys, but the other ones I have already give up too much…I really want to leave the big surprises for the album. Please bear with me 🙂 I think it’s gonna be worth waiting for it)
“Fear in your Eyes” started being written in the end of 2015. I was playing my guitar, trying to come up with some new ideas, and then…magic “happened”, I listened to something I liked. At that time, at least. Because we were still dealing with the other 3 new songs (“Poison”, “Degrees of Shade” and “Ms. Daniel”), I saved the idea for later. Always playing it, kinda liking it, but also always feeling worried about it. I didn’t really know why. When it was time to finally record its demo, my doubt was there. I froze, I couldn’t play. I was in doubt about each and every riff, about everything. Tried a couple of other times, did not happen. Then I thought I had something…but I froze up recording it, again! Ahhhh. Talk about frustration.
I think it was the worst case of “writer’s block” I’ve ever had so far. I was desperate. Nothing sounded good enough. Until I thought of home…and it all made sense.
I know I’ve been saying one of our goals – and one of my main personal goals – was not to go to our “safe” places all the time (yes, exactly like thinking “verse/pre-chorus/chorus/verse” etc etc). But with this song, I couldn’t help it. It’s almost like I’d been gone for too long, and now I needed home. Oddly enough, or not, after that it all fell into place. When Alice came in with the vocal melodies, it made even more sense. Almost like a spiritual bonding. A message, really. Sometimes we just need to go back home.
>Also, about the lyrics… “Fear in Your Eyes” was the first song which lyrics began by the title, not by the lyrics itself (usually that’s the process with me, I write the lyrics and then figure out the title, but with this one it was actually the opposite). I first imagined a kind of horror story, like literally (monsters and such – I was watching too much “American Horror Story” at that time, I have to admit it *lol*). However, as I started writing it, something else seemed more important…it’s a horror story, no question about it, but not so much a fantasy one.
After all that struggle, I can say this is one of my favorite songs for this album. 🙂 Listening to it feels like it was all worthwhile.